What's in my head?
My head has been full of thoughts this week, thoughts and snot (did I just say that?!)- it has been a sick-y week for me...cough, sore throat, gross nose, and then the sinus infection hit- bah! Did you know that my only other sinus infection in my life was when I was PREGNANT with Hailey! Shouldn't there be a rule that pregnant women are NOT allow to be sick with sickness unrelated to pregnancy?!? So, after a full day of feeling like I had been punched in the jaw- I saw the doc and got some antibiotics- hallelujah for drugs is all I can say...I'm on the up and up folks.
Maybe I feel compelled to write this record of my week because of my newest client who promptly reported that upon learning who her therapist would be, she googled me...of course google found this very blog and after perusing through she wondered how a person "with a perfect life and perfect husband" (her words people!) could possibly counsel her! Wow, I realized I do a great job writing about the positive points of my life! (although it should be noted that Kelly was not shocked at all to learn someone thought he was perfect...)
Not to state the obvious or anything, but unfortunately my life is not perfect. I yelled at my kids a few time this week about really important things like cleaning their rooms, setting the table, etc. and then I cried for feeling like such a crummy mom; I layed on the bed and closed my eyes for at least a half an hour while the girls "read books" next to me...which turned into jumping on the bed and ended that 'nap;' I let Kelly fold the clothes all by himself Monday night while I wallowed in the depths of my sickness despair...nope, my life is not perfect- B.U.T. - I really do love it.
This same client who googled me has posed some incredible questions that have really got me thinking this week...how can a woman yell at her children and then go teach Sunday school? (um, that one was directed right at me I'm sure!) How come we can "do everything we're supposed to be doing" and still feel like something is missing? and the one that has made me ponder most of all: How do we use the Atonement of Jesus Christ to better our self esteem? I have had some deep and productive thoughts thanks to her this week, and although I don't have all the answers, I have realized (again) that the most important thing in life is our relationships. Our relationship with Heavenly Father, with our families, with our friends... yep...so go make your relationships better!
I promised Sara some tummy shots, so here you go! I am 25 weeks today...feels like forever til' she's here!! She's super active and I seriously love every time I can feel her move.
P.S. You'll notice my too-small BYU apparel...well we're all a little star-truck with Jimmer at our house- Addison asked me yesterday if Jimmer is better than Michael Jordan! and the kids love watching the video on youtube "Teach me How to Jimmer" if you haven't seen it...it's pretty fun...if you even know what I'm talking about!
6 comments:
are you kidding? Jon watches youtube videos of Jimmer all the time. He has a man crush. :)
Annie, I love your blog. I think it is good, perhaps even essential to focus on the good things in life and record them for yourself and others. Remembrances of the good in life helps us through the bad and helps lift others as well. Rants and self debasement on blogs don't up lift others and seem to cut out the personal communication we should have with Heavenly Father and others about those issues. I will be forever grateful for believing the quote "The best is yet to be" at one of my most miserable times in life and then recording all of the great times we had as a family that year. It helped me see how blessed I am. Remember that a lot of times such negative responses from others to our happy times are really a reflection of their inner self and not something particularly wrong with you.
Lovin' the prego pose. Thank you for quenching my tummy photo appetite. I love that you shared a bit of yourself in this post. I bet you were smiling at your kids when you were "yelling" at them, though. Enjoy that sweet wiggly girl.
what?? you aren't perfect? fooled me!!!
Annie, un, those picts of you prego are beautiful. you're so skinny- winny!
oh Annie, I love the pregnant pics. You look awesome!! we all "yell" at our kids...and we all know that your "yelling" is nothing like the real definition of the word. There is no doubt in my mind that your kids know what a great mommy they have...and the little girl in your belly will feel equally as loved and cherished as the other three do. I miss you a lot...
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